Baek SeungJo's Diary >o< ??!!!

HaRa says that she hope we could start trying
Start? Talking about strat....
To me, do I still have the capability
to start over with others?
I left all my heart at the other place....
What I need now is only a small corner, other
than that, I have nothing to ask for

Ok, just let me take it as I don't
know, persevere to the end
It's so difficult to make living, too scary
I can only close my eyes cowardly

Why didn't you go back to your room and cry?
The sound of you crying can be heard in my room,
it sounds like a knife cutting into my heart
To do something that makes you hate me
Is already making me feel like dying
Why are you still crying there?!
What do you want me to do....

I can't cry like you, I can't vent my anger like you
because all these are my choice
Silly me can only hate myself, and
then bear the pain as if there's millions
of needles sticking Into me
What can I do?

You always hope that I can introduce
you as my girlfriend to other people
just when I have the idea of doing it, it progresses
to something that I really hate
Although I can't let you know what I'm thinking
but I can still send you a message right

Now the first thing I thought of unknowingly
every morning Is you
It's only days I went for matchmake,
and you are going on a date
Who will It be this time? Must be that weird guy!
Why didn't It ever cross my mind?

The truth that HaNi might walk towards others
That bright smile, kind heart
There's also chance that it will
be shared with others, why?
At that moment, something went
through my heart, making a hole
A gush of wind name HaNi blow through that hole
No one to help me to get ready my stuff
before work, also no one to tell me

"Come back earlier", no one to nag
about "Where's your wallet? Keys?"
You went into my world, and now
you are giving up on me....

Can't let you know my true feeling, can't
express to you my true feeling
Looking at you and Boong JoonGu
together, I'm not sad at all
even though I'm so angry that I wanted to
break his arms that you are holding on to
It's a simple thing for me to hide this feelings

Definitely can't open the door, even though you
say you are very happy with Boong JoonGu
even though I really wanted to
shout out loud that I like you
Definetely not opening the door that I'm holding
on tightly to now Is my only wish now
Have to lock this door tightly, pack and
put down everything about you
and not to remember It anymore, then,
becoming someone who doesn't know
you and carry on with my life

Even when I'm with HaRa you still
always appear in front of me
When you make mistake, the
look when you are angry
I will pack all this up and leave it behind....
The time when we have meals together,
the times when we were studying but ends
up sleeping on the desk together,
the night that both of us spend together,
the kiss that we both shared
Take it as if I'll forget everything even if we
were to pass by each other on the street,
i'll act as if I don't konw you, living my
life as if I have forgotten everything

Like today, even if I remembers
it, It's also only a memory
Let me be an idiot who can forget
everything immediately
Even after hesitation, I still choose to leave you
You, who have left me, who will never look
back, Is always making me look around
Even If It's only the wind blowing
hinking that maybe you will come,
looking everywhere for you....
Just need more time, I can forget, sooner or later

"Says that she will give an answer
to JoonGu's proposal today !"
JuRi and MinAh following behind me, saying
In the volume that I'm able to hear
I really can't belive it, Wu
HaNi Is getting married?
Just the thought of her smiling at Boong JoonGu,
kissing him, is already enouhg to
cause the anger to rise up In me

I can't take the feeling of losing everything
and being abandones anymore
Why would I feel abandoned?
I didn't do anything for her at all Isn't It
we couldn't even sit down properly
to disscus about the future
I really hope that she will stay by my side forever
what should I do about my selfishness
I can only just Ignore ny true feeling?
I feel as if i'm being drown in the
deep sea, unable to breath

I struggled very hard, closed my eyes, struggle
Finally realize that the air I rely
on to survive I Wu HaNi
only with you, I can breathe

What should I do, Baek SeungJo,
what should you do?
My heart Is lost....
What am I doing here, to say what?
What should I do even if I manage to see HaNi?
Or just to clarify something?
Or just to hear the heart breaking news of her
accepting Bong JooGu's proposal personally?

Waiting for you who walks through the rain,
waiting for you who I'm suppose to let go off,
waiting for you whom I want to catch hold off,
waiting for to tell you not to leave me

Words from HaNi cuts through my heart like
a knife, looking at my bleeding heart,
I'm finally certain about my feelings
"You like me, other than me, you won't like
any other guy Isn't It?" I said loudly
I thought that the feelings for HaNi
could be forgotten easily,
but my arrogant inner self accepted the
truth that I couldn't live without HaNi
Also once again certain that if I lose her
I will spend the rest of my life In regret

"You are right, I only like you, but what can I
do, there Isn't a space for me in your heart!"
Right, this is enough, I only need
you to tell me you like me....
Just like the wind that comes with this rain,
my heart has already race to you
No matter how many time I shout you
are mine will never be enough,
I walk toward you, my lips found yours

I have never forgotten how your
lips feel after our first kiss,
Your lips that's always calling out to me....
Only then I realize, the moment when
I swear that I will forget you,
till now, I have never did that
You have already went into my heart like the rain,
missing you makes me getting even near to you
This moment, I will not let go of you anymore
I'm not able to walk towards
that darkness anymore
I knew this will happen long ago

That day, when I see you studying very hard,you
already cause me to think that this Is special,
the day when you were dancing to that cute
jumping dance that moved my heart,
the days that you anger me by saying
you will forget about me,
from that beautiful day that you fell
asleep on the forest bench....